To set the scene it’s now been 14 months since I achieved Financial Freedom and it’s been 3 months since we decided to put a year between ourselves and FIRE. Usually this blog is about the quantitative hard numbers around saving, investing and early retirement but on this occasion I’m going to go a little emotional on you because the scene we are in is definitely interesting from a psychological perspective.
On the work front I’m still putting in the long hours that I always have but I’m now starting to feel more tired at both work and when I get home. I think this is because I used to always be so in the fight working to succeed at what I needed to achieve that I never had time for anything else. Now I feel like I’m more watching the fight and no longer have so much skin in the gain. I’d even say some boredom is starting to creep in which is starting to make the days and weeks drag on.
I’ve also noticed that my stress bucket has become massive and the tap that drains it is also now more like a fire hose. Some events that I’m currently looking after that once would have been giving me sleepless nights are now having little to no effect on me. I’ve also noticed that my bullshit bucket has become tiny and I’d go as far as saying that it’s now overflowing, flooding all over the floor and I’m slipping in it regularly. The organisation I work for can be a pretty political beast that sets some very unrealistic expectations. Once I would have been accepting of the situation and would have had my head down going like an idiot but now I’m speaking far more freely and it’s having both a bad and good impact. For example recently I was asked to accept a draft plan that was set by others with more authority but less domain knowledge than me and which was completely unrealistic. I pushed back and told them that they were being ridiculous and why they were being ridiculous. This resulted in a number of closed door discussions about me as a person and my attitude but when it was seen that the discussion was having no effect on me and was not going to result in my acceptance it all stopped. I’m yet to find out if the plan is staying or whether it’s being revised but either way it won’t really affect me greatly as the plan runs well past my FIRE date of summer 2018.
On the work front I’m still putting in the long hours that I always have but I’m now starting to feel more tired at both work and when I get home. I think this is because I used to always be so in the fight working to succeed at what I needed to achieve that I never had time for anything else. Now I feel like I’m more watching the fight and no longer have so much skin in the gain. I’d even say some boredom is starting to creep in which is starting to make the days and weeks drag on.
I’ve also noticed that my stress bucket has become massive and the tap that drains it is also now more like a fire hose. Some events that I’m currently looking after that once would have been giving me sleepless nights are now having little to no effect on me. I’ve also noticed that my bullshit bucket has become tiny and I’d go as far as saying that it’s now overflowing, flooding all over the floor and I’m slipping in it regularly. The organisation I work for can be a pretty political beast that sets some very unrealistic expectations. Once I would have been accepting of the situation and would have had my head down going like an idiot but now I’m speaking far more freely and it’s having both a bad and good impact. For example recently I was asked to accept a draft plan that was set by others with more authority but less domain knowledge than me and which was completely unrealistic. I pushed back and told them that they were being ridiculous and why they were being ridiculous. This resulted in a number of closed door discussions about me as a person and my attitude but when it was seen that the discussion was having no effect on me and was not going to result in my acceptance it all stopped. I’m yet to find out if the plan is staying or whether it’s being revised but either way it won’t really affect me greatly as the plan runs well past my FIRE date of summer 2018.